It’s to be here to talk about my journey, to talk about the wheelchair the freedom it has bought me.
I started using a 16 years ago when an extended illness changed the way could access the world. When I started using the wheelchair, it was a tremendous new freedom. I’d seen my life slip away and become restricted. It was like having enormous new toy. I could whiz around and feel the wind in my again. Just being out on the street was exhilarating.
But even though I had this newfound joy and freedom, people’s reaction completely changed towards me. It was as if they couldn’t see me anymore, as if an cloak had descended. They seemed to see me in terms of their assumptions of what it must be like to be in a wheelchair. When I asked people their associations with the wheelchair, they used words like “limitation,” “fear,” “pity” and “restriction.” I realized I’d internalized these responses and it had changed who I was on a core level. A part me had become alienated from myself. I was seeing myself not from my perspective, but vividly and continuously from the of other people’s responses to me.
As a result, I knew I needed to make my own stories about this experience, new narratives to reclaim my identity.
[“Finding Freedom: ‘By creating our own we learn to take the texts of our lives as seriously we do ‘official’ narratives.’ — Davis 2009, TEDx Women”]
I started making work that aimed to communicate something the joy and freedom I felt when using a wheelchair — a power chair — to negotiate the world. I working to transform these internalized responses, to transform the preconceptions that had so shaped my identity when I started using a wheelchair, by creating unexpected images. The wheelchair an object to paint and play with. When I literally started leaving traces my joy and freedom, it was exciting to see the interested and surprised responses from people. It seemed open up new perspectives, and therein lay the paradigm shift. It showed that an arts practice can remake one’s identity and transform preconceptions revisioning the familiar.
So when I began to dive, in 2005, I realized scuba gear extends your range of activity just the same way as a wheelchair does, but the associations attached to scuba gear are ones of excitement and adventure, completely different to people’s to the wheelchair.
So I thought, “I wonder what’ll happen if I put the two together?” (Laughter) (Applause) And the underwater wheelchair that has resulted has taken me on the amazing journey over the last seven years.
So to give you an idea of what that’s like, I’d like to share you one of the outcomes from creating this spectacle, and show you what an amazing journey it’s taken me on.
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It is most amazing experience, beyond most other things I’ve experienced in life. I literally have the freedom to move in 360 degrees of space and an ecstatic experience of joy and freedom.
And the incredibly unexpected thing is that other people seem to see and feel that too. Their eyes literally up, and they say things like, “I want one of those,” or, “If you can do that, I can do anything.”
And I’m thinking, it’s because in that moment of them seeing an object they have no frame of reference for, or so transcends the frames of reference they have with the wheelchair, they have to think in a completely new way. And I think that moment of completely new thought perhaps creates a freedom that spreads to the rest other people’s lives. For me, this means that they’re seeing the value of difference, joy it brings when instead of focusing on loss or limitation, we see and discover the power and joy of seeing world from exciting new perspectives. For me, the wheelchair becomes a vehicle transformation. In fact, I now call the underwater wheelchair “Portal,” because it’s literally pushed me through into new way of being, into new dimensions and into a new of consciousness.
And the other thing is, that because nobody’s seen or heard an underwater wheelchair before, and creating this spectacle is about creating new ways of seeing, being and knowing, now you have this concept in your mind. You’re all part of the artwork too.